UnOrth0D0Xy Iz Me

 Wow so today is the day after Thankstaken(Thanksgiving Day) b.k.a the infamous Black Friday

   I had made up my mind along time ago, that I would not participate in the chaos of this day lol. For one I am too broke to even be standing in someone's line looking for a sale! Secondly, I think its ridiculous how people push & shove and fight over tv's, dvds, cds, my size barbies(do they still sell those anymore? lol). I watched the news last year around this time and it said that ppl had died from participating in the Black Friday sales; thats too crazy, to me its never that serious

    So I've been in school for about 3 or 4 weeks and I realize that I can not tolerate the Fall Quarter( I mean I have to but you know how I do lol). Its like a gift and a curse because it gives me the chance to start over and do my best, but on the other hand, I realize that the Fall Quarter Has been my worst quarter for the past 3yrs. I'm trying to raise my G.P.A(Yall I'm in good academic standing and I've come a really long way) but this damn GREEK 001(Intro. to Ancient and Biblical Greek) is kicking my ass lol. Its my fault because I have not put forth 100% of my energy, effort and time. As a matter a fact I'm going to do my Greek Homework after I post this lol. I feel like I can graduate in four years, even with the two majors(and a possible minor, Hey what can I say, I'm very ambitious) but for now I'm banking on a 5th year.


As far as my social life goes, I feel like I no longer desire to party because everytime I go out, I always want to go home. I haven't been to a great party in years. I just dont know anymore.

People fear whatever it is that they do not OVERstand!


I used to be homophobic when I was a young girl, but now I am arriving to a point in which I am OVERstanding or grasping HOMOSEXUALITY, GENDER BENDER, TRANS-GENDER, and QUEER PEOPLE! I am no longer afraid of members of the LGBTIQ community. I am very comfortable with being around because I am sure about my sexual preference and I am sure about my sexuality. I no longer feel the need to say "NO HOMO" AFTER EVERY SENTENCE, which actually in my opinion, subconsciously tells others that you are HOMO or you're not sure if you are or not! I voted NO on Prop. 8 during the November 2008 elections and I have no shame in it and I support the happiness for all of humanity.


Hate crimes or discrimination against members of the LGBTIQ community are happening everyday and I believe that the people who commit these crimes are actually homosexuals deep down inside. If you think about it, most of the time a male commits a hate crime against another gay male, he almost Always uses sexual abuse or rape as a means to express his hatred. So I question the predator, Is he or she truly a HomoSexual or maybe even a Homosexualphile(Love of Homo's) and is this person attacking others because they are mad that they feel as if they can not be open and honest about their sexuality? I believe that if you hate a person, you really love them because you love them and what they do so much that you start to hate them or hate on them becuz they are doing whatever it is that you want to do, but can't!


As for now I would like to leave you all with this, If we begin to ATLEAST TRY to OVERSTAND the things in which we don't understand, then we will be less afraid of each other. Also i WOULD LIKE TO SAY THAT YOU SHOULD NOT JUDGE A PERSON BASED ON HIS OR HERS SEXUALITY, LIFESTYLE, OR SEXUAL ORIENTATION BECAUSE YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT THAT PERSON HAS TO OFFER YOU OR WHAT YOU CAN OFFER THEM, SO PLZ DON'T MISS OUT 0N YOUR BLESSINGS JUST BECUZ A PERSON IS GAY, LESBIAN, BI-SEXUAL OR TRANSEXUAL OR TRANSGENDER!


To Be Continued...

Hey yall, I will launching a new webseries called the "Kh0LL3G3 Khr0nicL3s" which will contain fictional characters that will Khr0nicL3 the life of me, and other college students. The Kh0LL3G3 Khr0nicL3s are random, yet real and true in most cases. I hope that you will find a connection with one or maybe even all of the characters. Plz give me your feedback and your support! Thank you!


Setting:
Schools: Martin Luther King, Jr. College @ Los Angeles, CA
HBCU:Malik Shabazz-Newton(Huey P. Newton) University @ San Diego, CA
Characters:
Feminae Ethopia Pinchback-McCarthy: 1st year/Bio-psychology major
Male Chancellor Mays: 2nd year/Pan-African Union president/Africana Studies major & Sociology Minor
Feminae Apollonia Lattimore-West: 3rd year/Womyn studies & Classical studies double major & Africana studies minor
Male Amiri Shakur: 4th year/Researcher/Economics Major
Male Sidney "Sid tha Kid" Young: 3rd year/Basketball PLayer/Business & Marketing major
Feminae Sasha-Monique Davis: 4th year/Dance & Business Major


Here is a sample of the show:

Ethopia: Hey Chance! How you been lately? I haven't seen you in forever. Have you been hiding out? You've been sick or something?
Chancellor: Naw, not at all. I've been grinding it out for school and I've been preparing for the Multicultural Fair, you know the one in May?
Ethopia: Oh yeah, I've been seeing flyers for that...I was thinking about having a booth. You know I make jewelry?
Chancellor: Oh yeah, well here is the application form and all you need to do is pay $10 for a sellers permit and you'll be straight. I know this is hella random but would you happen to be talking to anyone at the moment?
Ethopia: Nope, not at the moment. But I do have my eyes on a certain somebody!
Chancellor: WHo? What year is he?
Ethopia: Chance, you know I Can't tell you all of that! But I will say that he is a 2nd year and I think you might know him.

To be continued...

So like everybody is wrapped up in this whole alleged Iraqi & Afhaghani terrorism bullshit in which G. Bush fed us like after 9/11 happened. I get tired of the racially/social implications that are associated with people of Middle Eastern descent and sometimes even SouthEast Asian(India) descent. I definitely will not deny that some of the actions of religious extremist and anti-american sentiments are acts of terrorism. However, I think we have it confused as to who our true enemy is!
Our enemies rest right in our own backyards and sometimes even in our front yards. I'm sure you're wondering who or what it is that im a refering to, and don't worry I shall bring this person, thing, or group to the forefront in just a second. But I must say that this mystery group/person terrorizes people on a regular basis. Though some may be exempt from the constant terrorism, others like myself are born as targets, even if we have the $$$s to save ourselves! These terrorist in which I speak of are the PIGS and those who work to ensure the full affect of racism on a daily basis!

sidenote: Here when I use the term racism, I am using Ruth Wilson-Gilmore's definition of racism which states that "Racism is the state-sanctioned and/or extra-legal production and exploitation of group-differentiated vulnerabilities to premature death..."-Ruth Wilson Gilmore


When I speak of PIGS I refer to all PIGS, BECAUSE LIKE I WAS ONCE TOLD, A PIG IS A PIG, NO MATTER WHAT, regardless if the PIG is pink, clear, black, yellow, orange, red, and so on. There are some good PIGS out there, but most PIGS will obey their masters inorder to remain in good standing with him and also to reserve and ensure he gets the best of the scraps! And the PIG is taught to protect and serve his or hers master, the master's family & friends, and those who are of the same or similar social status as their master!(so basically if you aint in the master's house or his circle then you aint gone be proctected nor served by the damn PIGS!!!! AND ALSO, as some say "IF YOU'RE NOT FOR ME THEN YOUR AGAINST ME", SO THOSE OF US WHO aint in the Masters circle must be against him and we ultimately pose a threat to the order of the master and his circle!!!! POnder on that)


Think about how insane a farmer will become if you injure or even kill one of his pigs! He will go crazy and try to kill yo ass! lol but if you think about it, thats the same way the authorities react when one of their PIGS is slain by the "others". They will throw yo ass in jail, beat the sh*t out of you, and throw away the damn key! There is a huge penalty for slaying one of the Masters PIGS.

But if one of the Master's PIG(S) were to attack, injure or kill you then he would be sent home with pay or he would be acquitted of all charges and in private he would get a pat on his back for doing a good job or terrorizing the "others". Why do you think that PIGS are so thristy to get those quotas at the beginning and end of the month, they get rewarded by their Masters for keeping "the others" in check. POLICING is all about control, power, and dominion over another human life.

PIG/POLICE TERRORISM INCLUDES BUT IS DEFINITELY NOT LIMITED TO:
*Racial Profiling
*Shooting/Killing innocent civilians(hhhhmmmmm does this not sound all to familiar from a certain countries army? idk you tell me...*cough* the war in Iraq! oh did i say that, ooops im sorry)
*COINTELPRO
*Tapping phone lines, do to the masters suspicion
*Extortion
*Beating alleged suspects of "CRIMES"


This only Part I, and I may get arrested for discussing such topic but I thought I had the freedom of speech, I am discussing in a peaceful manner,my words do not intend to incite a riot but if your boils due to my words then I suggest you open up your eyes and realize and I will not apologize for your heart ache!

The Vagina Monologues is a play created by Eve Ensler, who conducted interviews with women in the 90's. She asked them questions about their Vaginas and she essentially transformed their answers into what is now called "The Vagina Monologues". Each piece is very unique in it's own rite and some piece may cause you a great deal of laughter, tears, or even happiness. I feel delighted to have been apart of such a great cause and I hope people received a message from the piece in which I performed. I want to fight the violence that occurs against womyn in all parts of the world and hopefully I can go on missions to encourage these womyn to cling to hope even in situations where it seems like one's life is completely helpless and uncontrolable. I want to see womyn become survivors instead of victims!
The Vagina Monologues can be offensive to some and it can be inspiring to others. I BELIEVE THAT THERE IS NOTHING TO BE OFFENDED OVER BECAUSE WE ARE JUST RETELLING A REALITY FOR OTHER WOMYN. THE WORLD NEEDS TO HEAR ABOUT THE STRUGGLES OF WOMYN AND THE NEED TO KNOW THAT IF THE CONTINUE TO SUPPORT, TURN THE BLIND EYE, OR ENGAGE IN FEMALE GENOCIDE, THEN THE ENTIRE FACE OF HUMANITY SHALL FEEL THE DRASTIC EFFECTS OF SUCH TERRORISM. WOMYN ARE AT CENTER OF HUMAN LIFE AND THE VAGINA IS THE HEART OF HUMANITY, AND WE ALL KNOW WHAT HAPPENS WHEN THE HEART STOPS, SO YOU DO THE MATH OR COMPREHEND MY LANGUAGE!

I pray that you'll join in on the fight against Womyn globally! Yall be good, safe and LOVE LAUGH, AND LIVE LIFE!

Okay so basically I just finished my last show of Vagina Monologues on Tuesday, Feb. 24th, 2009 @ 7pm in UNLH at UCR. I must say that the show is very interesting. Although I am a young lady, I learned so much about my Vagina and other women's Vagina's. Top mental notes in which I took during the play are:
1. Some Vaginas are VERY ANGRY(SO FELLAS AND LADIES PLZ TAKE NOTE)
2. Vaginas need hair, "You can not love the Vagina unless you Love hair...
hair is there for a reason...it's like the leaf around the flower or the
lawn around the house..."-Hair
3. The clitoris was created for pure pleasure
4. Some popular names for Vagina are: Vajayjay, Coochi, Coochi Snorcher,
nappy dug-out, punani, peach, ti ti, (THE MOST FAMOUS *PUSSY*), and mi mi
just to name a few
5. Vaginas hate douches, feminine sprays, tampons(OB to be exact), THONGS AND
PAP SMEARS OR OB/GYN APPOINTMENTS!!!!!!
6. Some womyn and Vaginas LOVE TO MOAN "YEEEESSS, YES, YES, OH NO NOOOO NO,
I SHOULD BE STUDYING RIGHT NOW, I HAVE A MIDTERM TOMORROW!"
7. Become Vagina Friendly!
8. Pussys UNITE!
9. Let's all work to relieve the women in the Democratic Republic of the
Congo...They truly need our help...stop Genital Mutilation
10. And always REMEMBER: UNTIL THE VIOLENCE STOPS!

The Revelation: Eyes wide open, chin up, head straight & facing forward, back straight and most of all, ears are at attention!

Jazzies Advisory: (These are my feelings so no one should get offended, I will not name anyone so there should be no worries!)

So as you can see in this segment I am going to discuss the things that have been revealed to me during my first year of college!

*Relationships of Intimacy*Okay, so most people know that I have a boyfriend and some may know that we're engaged! If you didn't know before well you know the story! But back to the lecture at hand, so since I have a man I did not have to concern myself with finding one. (These are my feelings so no one should get offended, I will not name anyone so there should be no worries!) But there were many college girls around me that were longing to find a significant other, and there's nothin wrong with that. The problem is when you settle for almost anything that is available to you, even if its not yours! I know some people are thinking, well you had/have a boyfriend so you did not have to worry about that! And I know some are also thinking how dare you speak on such a topic that you know nothing about!


Trust me sweetie I know all about it, I have been a witness to it for years of my life, so i'm no dummy! And even if it were me in the situation, I know that I would not react to it in that manner! And the guys are sitting back laughing at the females as they play each other. Its like the same shit, new day and possibly a Different bed, bedroom, or location! And then at then end of the day two beautiful sistahs that could have been the best of friends are suddenly at war with each other! Whats up with that yall? Ladies lets stop worrying about having a relationship and lets focus are attention on ourselves! Lets concern ourselves with becoming a better person, becoming a great WOMAN, and most of all lets concern ourselves with graduating from college on time! Because regardless if you end up dating the guy in which your heart longs for, I can assure you that he will get his shit together and get his degree(s)!


The last thing I would like to say about this topic is that if your gonna mess around with a guy, u better either make sure he makes you his Official Girl/Only One(Not #1 cuz then theres room for a #2) or you better accept the fact that your his CUTTY BUDDY/F**K BUDDY AND THAT HE WILL(I REPEAT) HE WILL HAVE MORE GIRLS LIKE YOU AROUND HIM. Meaning YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE...YOU MIGHT BE HIS LAST PICK ACTUALLY...AND IF YOUR FIRST...DON'T THINK YOU'RE SPECIAL...CUZ YOUR ISH MUST NOT BE THAT GOOD IF HE AINT WIFED YOU OR IF HE HAS TO HAVE HIS CAKE AND EAT IT TO!


*My Dreams and Aspirations*Man coming into UCR last year I hella dreams and aspirations that I just knew that I was going to fulfill! But guess what? That never ever happened! I guess the chips did not fall down in my favor. I was really sad because one of dreams was something I dreamed about for 11 years! At times when I think about it, it hurts my heart. But as I grow, I'm learning to get over it and I'm realizing that some dreams will just have to remain as a dreams, and when its time for that dream to become a reality, it will do so! But one aspiration that I will never ever let go of is to become a WOMAN OF GREATNESS!



Will They ever Grow up?

I thought that once you went to college all of your immature attitudes would go away and I thought that the cattiness of females would cease to exist. But that is not true at all. You see, after careful consideration and review, I have came to the conclusion that Colleges and Universities are great stages for assholes & clowns to entertain their own ignorances, insensitivites, inconsistences, and ego's! And for those of us who actually are trying to mature, we are forced to have front row/Nose Bleed seats and witness the bullshit!

Oh and the Haters, don't let me roll outta here w/o giving yall a piece of cake

...HATERS...HATERS...HATERS: HATERS EVERYWHERE I GO!


So just like I assumed the clowns would grow out of their suits, I assumed the HATERS WOULD HAVE GAINED THEIR CONFIDENCE BY NOW AND THEY WOULD HAVE CROSSED OVER 2 MY CLUB!Well I was wrong once again! The HATERS just find a bigger and better way to hate on you! It's like they have mastered the HATERNESS! I used to get mad at the fact that females would Hate on me, but now I embrace the HATERS...Its like if they aint HATEN then I need to step MY "P**SY GAME UP"-Nicki Minaj!... So if you're a HATER and you're reading this, Please Please Feel FREE TO HATE ON ME!

I wanted to share these lyrics with yall, this song really relates to my life at this point in time. In addition, I want people to know that it's okay to be lonely, for we came into this world by ourselves(even if you have a twin or mutilples yall still came at different times) and we shall leave this world by ourselves, so its nothing wrong with being a #1! 1 is better than a 2 anyways! lol